I'm so sorry for my severe inactivity lately. I've been under a lot of stress due to a few things. It'll get better soon. I'll even see if I can get the picture of Nesrine, a character that I won from M-3-1
in a raffle quite some time ago, finished today. (She is BEAUTIFUL and I am so happy to have won her. You have no idea!) In the meantime, I'll just have to hold out a little bit longer.
One thing I've been highly stressed about would be my lack of quality sleep. In fact, I've barely been sleeping at all because my mattress is just THAT horrible. It is a Simmons Beautyrest that my boyfriend had purchased before I moved in with him back in October. It used to feel nice. He has had the mattress for less than a year and it sags many inches and you even fall into the middle of the damn bed. Ugh. How terrible! It is causing me great distress also because of the severe back pain to my already injured back. I also have arthritis, so that damn bed definitely is NOT helping whatsoever. D:
However, I spent many weeks putting up with the bed to research what kind of bed I wanted. I used to have an Englander Plush Firm Natural Latex bed with a Bamboo cover. It was really wonderful. I searched long and hard (giggity) to find a bed similar or better. In the end, I ended up picking out a Restonic Lacuna for myself. My boyfriend ended up with a PureLatex Bliss Nature 10". We got each bed in a size twin XL to go on top of a split king Serta Custom Motion base. I needed new pillows for the beds as well. I got two Churchill & Smith K-Lex Luxury pillows. One standard and one side sleeper. These are also made of latex. These are super amazing! We also got Chili-Pad toppers to regulate the temperature on top of each mattress. Yay, air conditioned and heated beds! W00t, w00t!
My Restonic Lacuna will be here sometime at the end of next week. The Chili-Pads and Serta base should follow soon after my bed gets here. Finally, restful sleep at last. Soon. Back pain relief. Soon... I can't wait. When I get better sleep, my production rate should go up exponentially.
The other thing that has been a major stressor has been my medical debt and horrible credit. I've been trying to repair my credit and pay off my medical bills. It's incredibly difficult when they just keep flowing in from me being sick. I try to avoid the doctor if possible because I do NOT need more bills. Sometimes, I just can't avoid it. I probably have Lyme disease from a tick bite many years ago. I thought it was multiple sclerosis at one time but now I think it is Lyme disease. I mean, the Lyme disease test came back positive, so I MUST have it, right?
Yet another thing that has been driving me up the damn wall would be the fact that I just don't have my shit together at all. I still need California residency and that hasn't been the easiest task in the world. I got my social security card, utilities in my name, all that grand stuff, but I still need my license. Not sure when I will get it. Hopefully soon. Residency is so important to me because I need to start college at De Anza over in Cupertino. That's an hour-long drive to school and an hour-long drive back from school every day when I start. So, yes, driver license will be needed.
A silly thing that has also been bothering me is that I have lost even more weight (I've lost 90-100 pounds total now) and I need new clothes really bad but I can't afford them. I've been wearing rags for the most part. Rags being super cheap yoga pants and super cheap shirts. They're all falling apart on me now. :\ I'll just have to deal with it. I mean, I have a FEW nice things, but not that many.
I really need to speed up work production so I can pay more bills and buy myself some decent clothes. I am sorry for the long, long vent post made here, but it's good to get some things off of my chest.
For those of you who actually read this, thank you so much. It means a whole lot to me... have a wonderful day.